The Fear

Over the last few months loads of my friends have been planning their Summer holidays to amazing places like America, Spain and Canada. Most are going for a few months to work and others just a few weeks. I'm staying here. And for the first time ever, I'm really happy to be doing so.

If you've read the "About Me" section on this blog, you'll know that all I have ever really wanted to do was become a Make-Up Artist. While I don't mind my university course of English and Drama, I know I'll never use it once its finished. A mixture between Make-Up artistry and journalism has always been my goal and it seems now I'll finally get it. This Summer, instead of going away to the sun and the sea I'm going to be studying in LA MakeUp Academy for two months to become a make up artist!

Finally.

After spending the day there watching the goings-on and meeting the lovely Anouska who talked to me about the course, my mind was made up. I start at the beginning of July and couldn't be happier, especially when I saw the course rundown. But recently "the fear" of failure has taken over me. I've been waiting to do this course for about three years but the idea that I'd be awful at it has slowly been creeping into my mind.

While I don't find it difficult to slap makeup on my face, I may be awful at doing it "professionally" for others! After putting so much into saving for it and waiting to be able to actually do it, I guess I'm just afraid it isn't my "calling" afterall. While I know my mini panic-attacks are completely irrational, the thought of failure won't seem to go away. So my little question to you, is how does one fight "the fear"?

What are your plans for the Summer? Anyone doing anything potentially life-changing?